Now for something completely different...

Today would have been two months, and I'm really sorry that it isn't a happier occasion. All morning I have been thinking about happier stuff, a whole lot has happened in such a short time. It was a hard thing to do, and I wish I had done it differently.

It's not that I never meant anything I said, it's just that apparently I love me more.

I'm just going to play DJ now. For your reading pleasure today, we have "I Want Something More" by Bad Religion, followed by the Dixie Chicks "There's Your Trouble", and ending with Brandi Carlile "Someday Never Comes"

I Want Something More - Bad Religion

  

Going through a world of sad debris,
Regard quixotic reveries of ownership:
The blossoming disease of man called tenure and accretion,
The ancient western treadmill of deception and derision.
But I want something more.
Racing through a life of tragic wastage,
I experience the loss of trust and innocence.
The billowing cyclone of time has blown away our reasons
As we trudge like blind men forward trying to avoid collision.
But I want something...
More.

There's Your Trouble - The Dixie Chicks 

 

Should have been different but
It wasn't different, was
Same old story, dear john, and so long
Should have fit like a glove
Should have fit like a ring
Like a diamond ring
A token of true love
Should have all worked out

But it didn't
She should be here now
But she isn't

Chorus:
There's your trouble, there's your trouble
You keep seeing double with the wrong one
You can't see I love you, you can't see doesn't
But you just keep holding on
There's your trouble

So now you're thinking 'bout
All you're missing -- how
Deep you're sinking, round and round and dragging down
Why don't you cash in your chips
Why don't you call it a loss
Not such a big loss, chalk it up better luck
Could have been true love
But it wasn't
It should all add up
But it doesn't

Repeat chorus

Should have all worked out
But it didn't
She should be here now
But she isn't

Repeat chorus

Someday Never Comes - Brandi Carlile

Dear Love I miss you much
I miss your smile and I miss your touch
But I found a place where I can erase my past
Maybe someday when you're old and gray
And your hair falls out and your tattoos fade
You might see me standing
Hat in hand

I have to go away
I've got no reason to stay here
You said someday you'll change
But even a fool will tell you
Someday never comes

You built your rooms
You built your walls
You kept me outside of it all
I got tired of you
What's a girl to do
Maybe someday if we stay this way
And you see my face in a different place
You'll remember when
You're going to thank me then

I have to go away
I've got no reason to stay here
You said someday you'll change
But even a fool will tell you
Someday never comes

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Isn't it funny how even though this is what I want, I still feel like crying?