...don't call it a come back...

I never intended to go so long between post, like I said my hubby had been hogging up the computer with a project. Can't complain really since it is really working out for him. Plus, I must have been a good girl this year because Santa brought me a laptop for Christmas.

I have to admit. I really was disheartened in my last post. Most of the Christmas season, I just didn't feel the Spirit. It really bothered me too. I love Christmas. I love the energy. I love just about everything about it. It seemed like the harder I tried to find the Spirit, the more it eluded me. Isn't that always the case?

In my hiatus, I did realize that I need to be more true to myself in things. I have been trying to make this a place of general appeal, and it really hasn't been working for me. Don't get me wrong, I have had some interest in everything that I have posted, I just don't feel like I have been 100% myself in my post. I would rather have an authentic voice that no one hears than to sing a number one hit that I could care less about.

I have a lot of interest lately that I would really like to share. More and more, I am seeing this "giving" idea much more broadly. I am hoping to get myself and everything else a little more organized so that I can give a little bit more of myself to everyone else. It may not be much but it is the best that I have.

I am looking forward to tomorrow, the last day of 2010. No big plans yet. I want to go to the NYE service at church and my other half wants to go to a rave in Cincy. I am thankful that we believe in a benevolent God that will let us do both...if that is in fact what we are supposed to do. Looking forward to the year ahead finally in a place where I feel like it "get it" and that nothing can really faze me.

I hope all of you have a safe and sensational night tomorrow night, and I leave you with "The Toast (Here's to Life)" by Richard Mekdeci. Enjoy!

Maybe kindness isn't the key

My apologies for being so long between post, my husband has been barricading himself in the computer room for the last several weeks with a new project. Always seems like when I can get in here and do something I just don't have the energy or plain don't care.

I am starting to wonder if being a "better" person is really worth investing the time. That's really all I've got tonight. Oh sure, I could outline the sum total of my disillusionment but it would much like screaming into a void. Plus, for some reason tonight, Blogger is not cooperating with me very nicely, so....

Shrug, IDK.