Mission Accomplished...sorta...

I am happy to report that I sipped on Vanilla Rum & Coke whilst sitting in a hot, hot tub listening to Bessie Smith and eating Little Debbie Brownies.

Albeit, reduced-fat ones.

Then I sat on my bed and read a few more pages of

The Essential Kabbalah

I have had the book for years, I've just never gotten around to reading it.

Then I got online, duh, how else would this get here.

I had a few IMs.

Another brownie.

Listened to some jackass on American Idol totally (IMO) butcher

"Father Figure"

A few more IMs

I think I stand by my previous comments of being out of my league,

Maybe not league, maybe just division.

At any rate, I still have to set up my coffee date for this weekend.

Okay, I should say patiently wait for that person to call,

because well, we know if I call things will get done.

I can't always be the puppetmaster, now can i?

Well, I'd like to be but that never works real well.

I still have that like from "XO" stuck in my head.

Haven't made a decision about the MBA yet.

Haven't a clue what to wear tomorrow.

Wondering.

Wishing.

Worrying.

Wistful.

Thinking about that horoscope a couple of weeks ago.

The one that said to pick the one I've never tried before.

I'm not sure which on that is!

Flyaway Minion is playing Southgate House this weekend.

If I only I had a driver.

I could drink away my sorrows

AND

create new ones at the same time.

From where I am standing

right now

at this

very minute

it seems to me that the

crux

of my problem is

that I have no clear

picture of who I am anymore

or at the very least I don't feel special

I feel very ordinary as of a few minutes ago.

So very smart, yet so very ordinary.

So I am thinking coffee at Java Street because it's cozy

And they've got a couch

And a TV

And Chess

And whatnot

And somehow I think I will seem like the most interesting person in the entire world.

God, that would be sweet.

I'd like that.

It'd be a nice change.

It's either Java Street or breakfast,

it all depends on what I can talk him into.

But no more of that tonight, I need to get some good sleep.