Sunday, January 29, 2006
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Saturday, January 14, 2006
No other details are available because well, the more I tell them the more of a tall tale they become and I would like this to be real. I will, of course, try to keep you posted.
I am very sleepy so it's off to bed. I just wanted to post that while I was still in the moment.
Friday, January 13, 2006
The big day for going out to see some bands at Canal Street.
Funny you should ask! Moi and Lynnie Mae and Rita and me Mama. This should be interesting.
I'm kind of torn on what to wear. Too cold for skirts and dresses and really Canal Street has never struck me as place to dress girly, even though I always hold it with the reverence of going to church. I don't want to just go as I am, I just don't know how much attention I want to attract tonight. I think I am just going to change my shirt from this okay green shirt to a much better pink velour number 'cuz it matches my gymmers and it's supposed to get colder and I don't feel like putting on different shoes.
I just hope everyone has a good time, and that the snow waits 'till after we're home.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
I don't feel like writing today, so today's message for my flock comes from The Wedding Crashers. Personal opinion, it's one of the better scenes of that movie.
Janice: No, you're really sweet. I've got the perfect girl for you.
Jeremy: Ahh...Janice, I apologize to you if I don't seem real eager to jump into a forced awkward intimate situation that people like to call dating. I don't like the feeling. You're sitting there you're wondering do I have food on my face, am I eating, am I talking too much, are they talking enough, am I interested, I'm not really interested, should I play like I'm interested, but I'm not that interested, but I think she might be interested, but do I want to be interested, but now she's not interested, so now all of a sudden I'm getting...I'm started to get interested. And when am I supposed to kiss her? Do I have to wait for the door 'cause then it's awkward? It's like, well, goodnight. Do you do like the ass-out hug? Where you like, you hug eachother like this and the ass sticks out because you're trying not to get too close or just go right in and kiss them on the lips or don't kiss them at all? It's very difficult trying to read the situation. And all the while your just really want to know are we going to get hopped up enough to make some bad decisions. And perhaps play a little game called just a tip, just for a second, just to see how it feels or ouch ouch you're on my hair.
If you've not seen the movie, you're missing some good mindless fun. It's got some good stuff in it. Last weekend was like Owen Wilson weekend at our hourse. We watched Wedding Crashers, Meet the Parents, and Meet the Fockers.
Laughing is good.
Tomorrow is Friday the 13th and Saturday is the full moon, I think that speaks for itself.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
My horoscope for the day...
Libra on Wednesday Jan 11, 2006:
Being outspoken may get you into trouble but,
once the dust has settled, you will be able to go
about your business clear of mind and feeling much
better about your future. Don't let anyone who
challenges you get away with cheap shots.
Me, speak my mind, get me in trouble. Um, that's like daily so uh wow what's new.
Well, nice of you to ask. I slept a little better last night. Two nights in a row, yippee!! I had an email about a Hospital Reimbursement Analyst position that I am contemplating answering, even tho it is in Cincy. I think I am going to take Spring Break off with the plan of being somewhere new-ish by June.
As I was laying in bed last night, I was thinking about Rebel's comments. I realized that sometimes when you are looking for something you have to dump out the entire drawer. So, I think I'm going to start emptying drawers. I usually shy away from that because I don't want to do something that would cause undue stress on the kid, but you know since I am controlling the drawers, it would be different. Not like some of the things I have been trying to avoid her ever having to experience, other people pulled those drawers.
I think I am up to three people coming with me to Friday! I'm not so much excited as I had been, a little nervous more than anything. I don't know, putting people together is always a little nerve-wracking. Especially when it looks like you are going to be the driver, and you know you won't want to leave early.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
DEEP DEEP BREATH.
Maybe Wilco said it best when they said, "Distance has no way of making love understandable."
'cuz you know what -- should I even tell you-- no, no, I don't need anymore grief. But I would you know. In heartbeat. I don't care what anyone says...
It's one of those things, yeah, maybe if I had someone else in my life right now it would be different. But I don't and to find something comparable is going to take awhile. It took a long time to find him.
I don't know. More deep breathing and a little more crying at the sick ironies of my life, I'll be alright.
On the upside, he doesn't hate me. I just wish I could say the same about myself.
Flyaway Minion Friday hopefully that'll make me feel better.
None of the ones that mattered mattered, then the one that did not matter did. If it had been one that mattered, I would have been prepared.
Maybe I am the problem with me.
Maybe Jess is right, the answer is just stop giving a shit about everything.
I can't though.
I am always inclined to think that everything has a purpose, a reason.
Maybe the reason has always been just to drive me nuts.
I wish it would have been one of the ones that mattered.
Maybe then I could have actually fixed everything.
Monday, January 9, 2006
Well, my first thought was to talk about how sick I am of hearing about other people getting married because my friend in Colorado is doing so next month. I'm glad for her, but it still sometimes hard to take.
But there are bigger issues to contend with this morning. See, as you all maybe be aware I am crazy about the band Flyaway Minion. You also may be aware that I used to have my fancy pants rock 'n roll boyfriend. So, being the band whore that I can be, I sent Rob an email tell him to catch them next time they are in Cincy.
For the first time in 8 months, I got a response. It's like my heart breaking all over again.
I know I have said some things in blog that paint a horrible picture, but the blog is not the full story of my life.
So, do I go have a nice cry tonight and probably tomorrow and pretend it didn't happen. Or (and this is what I really want to do) fully torture myself by responding to what he said and saying exactly what I feel.
I have chest pain, a lump in my throat, and kind of wish that I could go home.
I still get sick of hearing everyone is getting married...but maybe that's because I screwed up my chance.
Sunday, January 8, 2006
Thursday, January 5, 2006
Wednesday, January 4, 2006
Howling Maggie - Promise to Be Happy
Kasey Chambers - Not Pretty Enough
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Simple Man [Live]
Keane -Everybody's Changing
Jane's Addiction - Jane Says [Live]
Counting Crows - The Ghost In You
Tori Amos - Leather
Wilco - Radio Cure
The White Stripes - Girl, You Have No Faith in Medicine
The Bloodhound Gang - Your Only Friends Are Make Believe
Violent Femmes - Kiss Off [Live]
Dire Straits - Where Do You Think You're Going
Tom Waits - Whistle Down the Wind (For Tom Jans)
Living Colour - Broken Hearts
U2- So Cruel
Flyaway Minion - Lost in This Distraction
The Nitty Gritty Dirt Band - Party On The Mountain
Cracker - Shake Some Action
Chaotic Discord - Fuck Religion, Fuck Politics, Fuck the Lot of You
Concrete Blonde -(Love Is A) Blind Ambition
The Soup Dragons - Pleasure
The Soup Dragons - Divine Thing
Mephiskapheles - Saba
The Ramones - I Don't Wanna Grow Up
Green Day - Android
Faith No More - The Crab Song
Beastie Boys - Hey Ladies
One Way Sytem - Cum on Feel the Noize
Tom Petty - It's Good to Be King
Jem - Finally Woken
Tom Waits - Hold On
Tuesday, January 3, 2006
Monday, January 2, 2006
Your involvement in groups and organizations will result in newfound friends or even potential mates. You will have a lot to offer the groups you join, and you can count on getting the support you're looking for, if you use your charm to get your way. (21%)
You will not get along with family members during this period. You'll be inclined to boss others around and only see your side of any situation. This is not the best time to deal with issues that involve your romantic partner. (22%)
You will do well at this time if you invest in precious objects that will grow in value. You will have an interest in products or services for the home, and could earn your living by working with such products. (75%)
Abusive relationships will result if you let someone you care about dominate you at this time. (21%)
Social activities will be plentiful. You will have a greater concern with children. Expect your creative abilities to surface. You will be in the mood for love and romance. Plan something special for the one you love. This is not the best period to take financial risks. (50%)
Your involvement with work-related activities will result in financial gains. You will find it easy to reach your deadlines if are willing to work at home. You will be rewarded if you assist someone who can not do things for themself. (30%)
You will have problems with children during this transit if you have any. Your choices of entertainment will be bizzarre during this period and could lead to dangerous situations. (20%)
You will be looking for companionship during this period. Organizations will welcome your energetic contributions to their cause. (70%)
You will be inclined to want to jump from one position or profession to another during this period. You will learn quickly, and you can make some positive moves. (21%)
You will get along well with authorities during this period. Your ability to take a position of leadership will also put you in a good position when dealing with others. You will do well in your personal investments. (21%)
You aren't likely to keep the promises you make at this time, and this will cause problems with family members. You will not have a clear view of yourself or of your life. (79%)
You will experience relatively good health throughout this period. You'll put a lot of energy into your work and your future. Keep a good cheery bedside manner when taking care of others. (76%)
You will be preoccupied and concerned with health, diet, work and your own well-being. If you allow things to get to you, you will experience stress, resulting in nervous tension. Don't let colleagues take advantage of you. (50%)
You'll have trouble getting along with partners at this time. Anger will only make matters worse. Discretion must be used when getting into relationships. (31%)
This transit will enhance your intuition, allowing you to tune in to the thoughts of those you love. You will meet lovers and partners in strange places or under unusual circumstances. (79%)
Deal with the important partners in your life. This is a great time to deal with emotional issues that have been concerning you. (80%)
This transit will enable you to earn your living in an unusual manner.You will have unique connections to those you work with. (82%)