A moment of silence for my sadness, but not a second more

Tonight, I have been tying up loose ends with my direct sales businesses. It is interesting how you can go from all to nothing so quickly.

I am feeling a bit sad because I truly loved Clever Container and my Clever gals and genuinely thought that I would go far with the company. A year ago I was anxiously anticipating a trip to Chicago for the first ever convention. If you had told me then that I would be writing this now, I would have told you that you were completely crazy. I rolled off the ranks of Clever Container for lack of personal volume, something I could have done something about really but I thought my energy was best suited elsewhere.

I joined/added another company, Do You Bake, at the end of December. On a personality basis, baking and cooking is much better suited to me than organizing. Honestly, I had intended to incorporate the two of them into some sort of beautiful and compliant with both companies relationship. I guess, though, that was not in the mix. I resigned my affiliation with Do You Bake earlier this evening. Unfortunately, there are a number of issue that make it impossible for me as who I am to actively continue with that company.

It's kinda like when you leave a boyfriend for a guy you perceive as somewhat cooler only to discover that the new guy is a complete tool and you have no chemistry. I've been happily married almost five years so I am totally unprepared for that feeling.

Sigh.


The good news is that I have my husband and his music. I have realized over the past couple of days that for all the time I have spent not making any money in direct sales, I could have not been making money for him. You say codependent, I say symbiotic. I have made three videos for him in the last week. Actually, four but the last one is still in process. I didn't do it because he asked me to, I did it because I wanted to and I enjoyed it. Now to drive traffic to http://www.reverbnation.com/enpde !  It's kinda one of those things where I want to advocate liking and hiding but not so much because those of you who really know me know that I am completely discerning about men who claim to be musicians and that I could never date...let alone marry some who completely sucked. His music is "electronic" and most of it is strictly instrumental. There are three free downloads available and actually if I can get enough interest I could run a giveaway of CDs because we have a few left over from when enpde was a band and not a solitary bastion of awesomeness.

So we'll never be organized nor will we schlepp baked goods mixes but we'll have each other and a combining of talents. Hmmm, seems fair, not let's see what happens.

In all seriousness, though, I meant what I said about feeling sad about Clever. I feel like I let a lot of people down and I am not sure how to make amends for that.

Until next time...