If you haven't any charity in your heart, you have the worst kind of heart trouble. ~Bob Hope

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Captivating title wanted...

I should have gotten a livejournal, at least then I wouldn't feel so bad about not having an audience.

It is disappointing to keep putting oneself out there and not having anyone taking it. This blog, my other blog, my life, my stupid insistence that I need to keep trying.

For what? Continual disappointment. Perpetual sadness. Nagging insecurity.

If you keep reaching out and people keep running away, what is the incentive to keep trying?

My anxiety is through the roof today for various reasons. Mostly I am tired of trying, and tired of holding out hope and playing positive. Optimism is a luxury afforded people who already have what they need, so they can get what they want.

1 comment:

  1. Some people read what you write and move on never letting you know that what you wrote moved them. I did that the first time I visited your blog from a link on your fb info page. The truth is that I was so captivated by your authentic post that I read your entire blog my first visit. You are a couragous woman to write so honestly. If you keep it up, I'll keep stopping by occassionally to read it.