What's on my mind...



My first Birthday Gift from Ryab 2006

 Sigh...

Double sigh...

Profound, isn't it?

I am sure that over the past couple of days there are people who have deemed my husband and I completely crazy. He lost his job on Friday. It seems that no reaction since then has been quite what people would expect. I know that my reaction wasn't what he expected. I am pretty sure that it is with God that all things are possible, so why should we even care about the ex-employer, because despite their delusions of grandeur, they ain't God. (Sorry, girl coming out of Germantown there.)

I am not worried or concerned or the slightest bit inclined to panic. Like I said the other day, it's a huge testament to all of the spiritual finetuning I have been up to lately. You know what is getting me? Despite all of this centering or whatever, I am alone. Always alone. I don't want sympathy, it would just be nice to have someone other than my husband to communicate with.

It has been a long time since I have had the kind of friends that you can call at three in the morning. I am some what envious that my husband has had other people to talk to over the past couple of days. I don't seems like everyone has always looked at me as strong. Yeah, heh, I feel a song coming on...

What does this have to do with kindness?

Maybe that I just need a little and it makes me feel really horrible that I have to ask for it.

Until we meet again...